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  • Nov. 20th, 2009 at 9:14 PM
They're Pretty, They're Cheap, They're for the Season.
But sadly, I doubt I'll find the occasions to wear them here.

I'm bored & tired of studying.

My Fake Blogshop Post:


A new addition to the canvas shoes series.
Approx SGD19.50 - SGD25.
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Studs for the kill.
Approx SGD29.5 - SGD35.
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Love the neutral checks.
Approx SGD19.5 - SGD25.
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Heels & Lacing <3
Approx SGD22 - SGD28.
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Sweet. Perfect for those frilly dresses.
Approx SGD19.50 - SGD25.
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Simply Awesome.
Approx SGD29.5 - SGD35.
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I want to go Taiwan.

Ok, out of this virtual world and back to studying.
Life sucks ):

Nov. 18th, 2009

  • 2:44 PM
not as weird as miss tan's but... 日有所思夜有所梦!?

i only napped from 11.25pm to 1.15pm after breakfast and i had this really action packed dream that seems so bloody realistic. bloody and realistic.
(i wanted to wake up at 1.30pm, but it's quite scary towards the end that I woke up before alarm rang)

I am in some underground MRT station with some people and authorities hurrying the few of us to board the incoming train asap. Meanwhile can hear weird disturbing sounds from the control stations upstairs; like the 'grrr' grunting sound that is resonating throughout the Quarantine movie (i.e. ZOMBIES/PARASITES ALERT) and some gun shots.

When the train finally arrive, we can see some weird looking person loitering inside covered in blood via the blood-stained glass panels. Before the doors opened, he turned and I can see that he looked like... Resident Evil 3's Nemesis. Scary shit k. A lot of people tried and succeeded in shooting him down (even I had a odd looking gun suddenly) once doors open and we hopped onto the train at quite the last minute when u hear the "doors closing. di di di di di". As the train leaves the station, mobs of zombies came down to the platform, apparently having broken down the barricade upstairs.

But well, we're on the leaving train already, so quite safe huh. We looked around the train and saw some random dead bodies and actually some survivors who looked pale, battered and blood-stained (like went through some battle). No one look suspicious like in those movies where they seemed 'normal' but is already a zombie and will suddenly pounce on the protagonist. And no weird "grrrrrrrr" sound which I so detest in Quarantine. Awesome.

As the train travelled from one station to another, I somehow got how the dream is going. (you know how sometimes you know what your dream is going to be like after a while but you just continue sleeping and dreaming it) The group of us in the train have to be on our guards every time the train is stopping at a station, because not all the stations have 'survivals'. Usually when the doors open, just have to wait for people to hop on while barricades hold up the mobs at the control stations. Occasionally, some zombies will break through before doors closed and we have to shoot them down. The scary thing is, some stations do not have survivors, apparently already GG-ed. Once train enter station, we can see a few zombies banging on the glass panels or approaching. And people inside have to point our guns at the entrance and shoot like hell once door opens.

And I have to scream about how odd the gun im holding is. It looks like the tool people use to punch earholes HA. Although it does shoot some damage dealing bullets, the reload speed is f-ing slow (I was complaining and complaining in the dream). Thankfully somehow, the situation of ammo running out doesn’t occur.

Anyway here’s the interesting part. At one station, it was quite eerie. Once door opens we can hear the “grrr grrr grrr” sound pretty loudly, but there’s no mobs on the platform. In fact, got a few survivals waiting outside. When the last guy tried to enter the cabin I was in, I was quite horrified and pointed my hilarious looking gun at me. The people around me was screaming at me that I’m crazy and I must not shoot a normal person! And I was screaming and crying that “he is a zombie he is a zombie” x100 times. I was quite exasperated why they actually think he is normal. He had his head down the entire time and liquid(saliva?!) was dripping on the floor and his collars/neck was blood-stained and the “grrr” sound is so disturbing. Sure, he is dressed normally, not attacking yet and walking in a straight line?. Before some asshole tried to push me away, I fired a shot at him, did not kill him but he finally looked up, bared his fang?! and chionged at us. Luckily the people around me shot him down together before he attacked anyone, and the doors closed.

Basically the journey continued, with survivors boarding and zombies shootout at each stop. People got wary of those who were in the train and I asked someone to go check everyone out to make sure they are “normal”. Until we reached some station that is above ground, the number of mobs outside the train is too alarming. The group of us in the same cabin were barely hanging in there with the shootings and I’m fed up with my slow reload speed. I wanted to check out how the other cabins are doing then realized why suddenly like quite quiet (apart from our side, we were at one end). I realized the people who went to “checkout” on the rest of the survivals in other cabins did not return and suddenly the typical zombies’ “grrr grr grrr” sound got really loud and seems like they’re getting closer (even sound like they are from inside the train). What’s worst, I think this is some interchange/terminating stop, THE DOORS LIKE NOT CLOSING.

Woohooz, I know we’re screwed. And I woke up, quite freaked out.

(I wrote this down while I still remembered the details. In hope that in the near future, this can serve as some ideas/storyline if I ever were to make a zombie themed computer game LOL.)

I think I'm subconsciously stressed up.
I really hated and regretted watching Quarantine. It is too real. (I was freaked out for quite a long time after watching that movie)
And Nemesis is just URGH. Whoever invented zombies like that is really sick. ):

need to stop :d

  • Oct. 26th, 2009 at 5:49 PM
stop playing bejeweled
stop playing mafia wars
stop playing country story
stop play mj mahjong

stop surfing tw spree-sites
stop watching kangxilaile
stop wanting to play volleyball
stop trying to put all edible matter within sight into my mouth

simply put, i need to stop procrastinating. :o 
(most efficient strategy #1: have someone suspend my fb account)


四目交接的时候 不要停留太久
适可而止的问候 关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索 嫉妒只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞 也不能对你说

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义



ifeeljinxed ):

  • Oct. 11th, 2009 at 11:28 AM
this year is hell for me:

during the summer holidays, i had to go to tantockseng a&e at 3am to have a cockroach extracted from one of my ears.
and from then on, i can only fall asleep peacefully with blanket/pillows wrapped around my head and ears.

then during one of the volleyball trainings, i suffered some stomach spasms while doing krunches which is a freaking scary sensation.
it leaves me wondering if i have hernia/stomach cancer/my intestines managed to tangle itself up.

for a long period of time till now sometimes, i feel clicking in my jaws when mouth open wide. occasionally my jaws even get stuck and the muscle around there feels tight. sounds like a case of TMD/TMJ. the dentist even wrote me a referral letter to some specialist at raffles hospital, where a session of consultation probably cost 80-120SGD. I have not made an appointment yet, because apparently it is a condition traditionally called 猪头皮 - caused by heatiness. And thankfully it seems to be fine now and i can eat burgers in peace without fearing that my jaws will dislocate itself or something.

and then, i've been having dubious short pains in my left chest area and left back area. coupled with the jaw problems and occasional aches in the left arm, often leaves me panicking if these are symptoms to having a heart attack. (plus the never ending stories about people i know or people i heard about suddenly dying of heart attack in recent years.) so eventually i found the time to talk to a doctor before i die of a panic attack first, and she deduced that it's an injury of my rib bones. I probably injured it while playing volleyball, though it's quite weird since im a right-hander. and thank goodness she even assure me that it's fine for me to not go for a full body checkup as she puts it "you're too young for it".

and to you guys who have been worried for me over this, yeah, it's getting better already :D

what's next.

i decided to stay in hostel over friday night to finish my laundry and clear some notes reading. after slacking enough, i finally tried reading some notes. I don't know its the bloody notes or what, I felt sick and and bloated. next, i thought i was going to belch, but to my horror, im going to puke. and kns, i don't have time to exit the room so i threw up my totally undigested dinner all over the front door near my closet in the middle of the night. @$#@%^!^%&*( it's not that disgusting actually since the japanese curry chicken rice i ate at 6-7pm looks and smell almost exactly the same as when I ate them. -.- my stomach is a failure at digesting. anyway I felt so horrible and I had to clean up the epic mess immediately after - i.e. wiping up everything with tonnes of toilet paper + mopping floor with wet wipes. 

after drinking lots of water, i've decided to heck the piles of jinxed notes and dragged my cold and horrified self to bed. unfortunately shortly after, I felt a second wave of nauseousness. This time round, I have time to exit the room but still did not made it to the toilet -.- and threw up lotsa bitter yellowish water at the corridor. (sry, limpeh is disgusting.) ok, so now i know, my failure stomach can't even take water. and after finally reaching the toilet, I threw up again - lots of water. but thankfully it's all fluid, I had an easier time time cleaning up - i just filled up my pail and pour water all over the corridor and toilet floor, hoping that the water takes them somewhere where people wouldn't know they're puke.

by the end of everything, i could only shiver in bed and phone my parents (i'm so sorry it's 3.30am T_T) argh,  I actually asked if they can come take me home earlier in the morning, but they rushed over right away T_T. i'm really thankful for that. the whole of saturday is spent having endless diarrhea, visiting the doctor, eating medicine and watery white porridge with nth in it and fighting with my fluctuating temperature of 38.2 to 39.2. (damn cool ok, it's not going up/going down, it's fluctuating)

finally, I'm feeling fine today. the numbness in my hands and feets gone. no more spinning world and ls-ing. though it's quite shocking that when i took my temperature just now, it's 34.1, wtf. watery white porridge with caixin sauce an bits of preserved beancurd actually taste good.

and i gained an MC for monday.

conclusion (I) - i hate my weak-ass body.
conclusion (II) - i need some kind of good luck charm/amulet with amazing power.
conclusion (III) - best remedy for stomach flu in addition to doctor's prescribed medicine is Panadol Cold + Panadol Extra taken together.
conclusion (IV) - I've gained a lot of medicinal and first-aid knowledge this year.

暗恋

  • Sep. 12th, 2009 at 9:31 PM
四目交接的时候 不要停留太久
适可而止的问候 关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索 妒嫉只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞 也不能对你说

啊好朋友啊我的好朋友
不小心的沉默 不想让你太难过

我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远

相信我们走到另一个境界
搭肩高唱友谊万万岁
要是我爱你变成了语言
什么会多一些 什么会少一些

就让别人去猜测 我们清白的很
就让自己去承受 那种清白的闷
就算我只是朋友 能不能有要求
如果会发生什么 也是我想太多

啊好朋友就只是好朋友
不小心说出口 微笑中藏着难过

我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远

你会不会也曾闪过这感觉
一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你变成了利剑
什么会被消灭 什么才会复原

那是我的底线 继续将你暗恋


暗恋 by  張智成
Lyrics by 彭学斌

呵呵 眼淚成詩 <3

  • Aug. 21st, 2009 at 9:43 PM

我一直都明白自己是個哭點很低的人。

看偶像劇會掉淚,讀言情小説會掉淚,聽到感人的故事,看悲傷的MV都會忍不住眼淚盈眶。

但從很久以前開始,我學會了不在人前哭。無論好友或是家人,要看到我哭泣幾乎是不可能的事。

常常有人說,不輕易哭就代表堅強。
但是,愛哭也不代表不夠堅強。能夠拼命忍住眼淚, 直到沒有人看時, 才盡情的發洩情緒,讓眼淚把所有的難過,所有的委屈,所有的憤怒統統帶走。這何嘗不是一種堅強的表現?

也有人說,爭吵中,先哭的人就先贏。
但是,我覺得哭的人更本根本是在示弱。太過好強的個性讓我絕對不會在爭吵中哭着結束。明明知道掉淚就會讓別人心軟,就會有人來關心,但就算哽咽顫抖我也不想用這個方式。

我想告訴所有見過我哭的人,很抱歉讓你們看到我那麽丑的一面。
(說哭的女人很美麗的一定是個瞎子。別懷疑。)

忍耐有極限,堅強也會崩潰。忍不住在人前掉淚的時候還是有。
只是你們知道我不需要什麽安慰。也不想分享什麽傷心事。
給我一點時間哭完就沒事了。
我的恢復能力是很強的!

ZHUN

  • Aug. 20th, 2009 at 12:48 AM
i think this personality test is damn zhun.
at least this description sums up what i know and think about myself.
it's quite scary :x

http://www.personalitypage.com/INTJ.html 

I don't wanna miss a thing.

  • Aug. 16th, 2009 at 12:17 AM
heart broke into pieces after the final whistle T_T
was in such a daze that i couldnt speak after that.
have passed the age where we cried over losing a game,  so it felt even worst when there's really no where else to vent.

a horrible scene is replaying in my mind:
when i heard the wrong whistle and did not hit the ball.
it's the most horrible mistake. a most unworthly point lost ever.
yes, it's not unusual to listen to the wrong whistle. but I cant believe that I just let the ball fall.
it only shows that my strength of focus and concentration is that much zzz.

and the ridiculous phobia.
i never knew my mind was this weak. haii. 

I miss those times :)

  • Aug. 8th, 2009 at 2:40 AM
one of my favourite songs by Twins. and probably the only cantonese song I can sing by heart with the highest accuracy.
love it <3 




歌名: 戀愛大過天
演唱: Twins 
作曲: 伍樂城
編曲: 伍樂城
填詞: 林夕

學業要緊 我會小心 喜歡的他卻在走近
聊聊天竟比考試更專心
難道沒有他 我會更自愛 何時可戀愛
理論為何沒記載 要那樣才是應該

*同學愛新鮮 戀愛大過天
 想不想也日夜懷念 連甜夢也不夠甜
 當然 現在我未成年
 讓我膚淺 只知戀愛大過天
 忘記有益的格言 自動掠過他眼前
 怎麼閃 同學始終會遇見*

學習大多 愛好太少 光陰一眨眼便跑掉
為何他竟比功課更緊要
難道沒有他 我會更自愛 何時可戀愛
理論為何沒記載 要哪樣才是應該

REPEAT*

少女愛暗戀本是自然 現在志願以後或會變
而我是否懂得愛 不應該也難改變

REPEAT*

(未大個女 你大概應該)
天空海闊什麼都喜愛
(未大個女 你大概應該)
談些少戀愛 談更多未來
(未大個女 我大概應該)
應不應要為他鍛練期待
(未大個女 我大概應該)
如果可愛 愛愛亦無害
(未大個女 你大概應該)
難道老來先可以戀愛

random shoutouts :D

  • Aug. 2nd, 2009 at 12:32 PM
nowadays i'm always in a good mood and i don't know why!

i'm not even bothered that holiday is coming to an end! (ok, actually i am /.\)

let me post a big......

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE