新宠：



开始就是成功的一半：



没想到有一天我也能用吉他弹个什么出来吧！哇哈哈哈哈哈！

sometimes i wonder why am i so vain now 
i am more willing to spend time and  money on pretty clothes,
to do pretty nails, to have good skin, to put on makeup etc.
is it really part of growing up?

i am suddenly reminded of this guy i kinda dislike in secondary school
reason being he thinks he can get away with anything just because people thinks he's cute and popular
i vaguely remember him telling people how he thinks i look like a monkey or i'm like the ugliest girl in the class
although i don't like him, but it's still was quite upsetting to hear this kind of comment for a girl
especially when i think of all the friends i had that time who probably agreed with him too lol 

looking back, i can't blame anyone for that thought anyway.
i was super tan because of all the outdoor training i had (still quite tan now).
i was super skinny probably because i had asthma when i was really little (still quite skinny now)?
i was flat-chested because i'm skinny (unfortunately still is).
i had ugly teeth because i refuse to put braces (still have, and most likely will continue to have).
i had ugly hairstyle  (might still have).
i wore conservative ugly clothes (still do, sometimes).
i probably have ugly eyes, ugly nose, ugly mouth, ugly face (though they don't look ugly to me actually)

but aside from getting/hearing people criticize my looks occasionally, i was still quite happy with myself.
i am well physically, i can eat a lot without worries, i had fun doing sports,
i have skills or talents i can be proud of, i made wonderful friends that i think i can keep for life.
just that i never believed anyone who said i look okay, or even pretty. which is quite sad.
when people say i'm smart or i'm talented etc, i feel flattered.
but when they say i'm pretty, i feel sorry they had to lie.

as i grow older, somehow i learnt to appreciate my outer appearance better.
i'm never going to have cosmetic surgery unless something choy happened and most of my face is ruined.
i'm probably not going to put braces unless my oral health is seriously threatened.
i'm never going to become pearly fair because i don't think i can give up outdoor activities or reapply sunblock every 30 minutes.

and i finally feel happy when i receive compliments.
but i developed this bad habit of looking to my friends for assurance if i really look ok.
please try not to be annoyed at me, because sometimes, it's hard to get the confidence i need.


and sometimes....
a little bit of narcissism is necessary!

after coming back from my graduation trip and started the job search process, I gradually came to the revelation that the carefree and precious school life is officially over for me. ):

anyway, I'm kinda glad that my foresight when picking this course of studies was right 4 years ago. the industry is searing hot with demand for IT graduates right now. which is a good thing and some what difficult thing actually. i just rejected a job offer for a web developer of a interesting start-up firm due to various reasons (including salary). now I'm praying that upcoming interviews and applications next week with more start-ups and established firms will go smoothly. if i'm lucky, I may end up with my first job :)

as for another matter, some people are shock that I still play volleyball, considering that I suck so much so why do I bother to continue till now. but I'm really glad to join this group of people that shares the same interest, and I'll do my best this open championships, finally playing my long dreamed position of a libero. 终于可以心无旁骛，放心专心的当个自由人 xD 我相信你们，希望你们也相信我！

just hoping that the weird back injury can heal as soon as possible.

and blardy hell, i wanna go genting and kl too! too bad i'm a poor and unemployed person at the moment. PLEASE GO ON A TRIP WITH ME END OF THIS YEAR! I WILL PLAN AND BOOK OK! XD

latest:
MEIJI COLOURS :D
Vidanail Pinky Beige and Choco
Konad m64 white

i satisfied my double eyelid tape curiosity today!

before:


after:



and i tested the steal from gmarket:

(lined with brown upper and white lower)

forgive my once in a while vain posts.
i <3 gmarket!

super happy:



super super happy:

 I quote from this CNA news article on "SM Goh, MM Lee to leave Cabinet":

"But the younger team must always have in mind the interests of the older generation. This generation who has contributed to Singapore must be well-looked after." - Mr Goh and Mr Lee

Well-looked after where? JOHOR BAHRU?!


I have not reach the age to care about HDB prices. But I'm old enough to know that outsourcing old age nursing homes to another country is simply JUST WRONG.

The government keeps assuring us over and over again that we have enough resources to house as much foreigners as they could possibly want. Then please please please tell me why, WHY DON'T WE HAVE ENOUGH RESOURCES TO PROVIDE AFFORDABLE OLD AGE CARE FOR THE ELDERLY!?

I'm not self-righteous to think that everyone must care for their elderly parents themselves. I totally understand that adults have to work full time to support the family, and may not have the time and energy to provide adequate professional care for their elderly parents. Sometimes, nursing homes is the only viable solution. My issue is, why must we outsource such a thing to our neighbor country?! Do not give me the bulls about how it is so much cheaper over there and how the air is better etc.

If you can't even provide equally affordable old age care for Singaporeans who helped build this country and sponsored your salary, maybe you need to rethink if you REALLY have the resources to support your insane immigration program.